I should be sleeping

I am tired.
My eyes are hurting.
I am laying in bed with the lights off and the fan on high, making that sound that makes me sleepy, with the laptop on my lap, writting on my blog.

I should be sleeping.
Conserving energy.

Today was hard, yesterday too - tomorrow, probably a little bit harder.
So much work!

2 full days of unpacking box after box after box while trying to occupy my darling son all by myself in the new house.
Up and down stairs probably over 100 times.


I should be sleeping!!!!!

I probably wont make any sense right now - I am exhausted.
Maybe I AM sleeping.
Instead of sleep walking, sleepblogging.

Feels like it, anyways.


I am annoyed.

My dear husband should have been here right about now.
That would be a better reason to be up right now.
But noooo.... plans changed and we are NOT happy about this!
Him and Joel left today with all the furniture in a huge Uhaul truck at 3pm.
The plan = get here before midnight.

Then I get a call....
The Truck broke down in the middle of the highway!
Poor boys.
I am happy nothing happened to them.
I am also happy I WAS NOT in that truck!
I get scared with stuff like that!
Anyways
Mechanic came, he wasn't able to fix the problem!
grrr...

They went to a hotel, in which they r probably both symphonically snooring right about now.

Tomorrow morning, they mechanic comes back in hope to fix that stupid crappy piece of SHIT truck!
Sorry, I am grouchy!


If, and GOSH I HOPE THIS IS NOT THE CASE, the truck cannot be fixed, I assume they have to unload all of it and load it up to another piece of (ok I will refrain to use it twice) crap truck!

R U KIDDING ME??

That TRUCK better be fixed.
I want my stuff out of that truck, but NOT onto another one! I want it in our house!
WE will see tomorrow what happens.

Tonight I sleep in Alex's bed again.

Let's hope tomorrow I spend the first night in my new house, on our mattress, with my husband on my side.

That's all.

time to close the laptop and go to sleep!

7 dias (7 days)

As the minutes go by and I sit here in my home, I get more and more emotional about what is to happen in 7 days.

I have known for what? almost 3 months, that this was coming. But it feels like I just got the news.
Like my dear husband just came to me and told me to pack my things, that we were moving.
Like I have no time to say my goodbyes and see everyone I would like to see.
Like I am racing against the clock.

First, it is very important that you know that I AM happy about what is to come.
That I AM looking forward to my new life somewhere else.
To my new friends, my new home, my new everything.
I am scared, of course, it is something completely new and I have become quite a chicken when it comes to changes as I get older.
But I am optimistic. And deep inside, kind of excited about it all.

However, I DO have to admit one thing: these next few days are going to be "just a little" overwhelming for ME.

As I prepare for the move, my mind has been taking me to different chapters of my life.

As I fill up boxes and tape them close, I remember the day I drove down in the Uhaul truck from Wisconsin, eager to start my new life as a college graduate.

As I stack one on top of another, I remember a night when I went to Miami and partied inside a huuuuge party bus with a whole lot of strangers until early hours in the morning.

As I sit down to rest for a little bit, I remember the time I decided to buy myself a ticket to go to France to visit a friend I had met down here and got stuck in the airport over there for over 2 hours without finding him. I was not scared. I told myself, "oh well! If I don't see him, I will get a cab, stay in a hotel in Paris, go see the Eiffel Tower at least, get a cab back to the airport the next day, and go back home." Thankfully, he found me. I was in the wrong spot.

As I organize a few things in the drawers, I remember all the places I went out to dance. Cafe Iguana, back in the day... Vodoo Lounge, my second home... Opa, dancing on the tables. geezzz... dancing was my thing back in the day... NO alchohol needed. Just good music and a spot for me to dance all by myself on top of a little stage, a cage, anywhere...

As I go grab a water bottle, I remember all the places I had lived in. All my little boyfriends(cough). All the jobs I had. All the fun times. All the heartbreaks. But most important, all the friends I was able to make.

I AM sorry if I sound a little too sensitive, but to me, it IS a big deal.

I spent ONE THIRD of my life here and let me tell you, what an incredible journey it has been.
Hey! One third IS a LOT!

I came young, naive and ready to start a heck of an adventure.
I don't even think I knew what I wanted at that time.
But I was "unstoppable"!

That was in 1998, 11 years ago!

Now I look back, nod my head, sigh, close my eyes, and smile.

How can I NOT miss "my" Florida?

How can I not get emotional when reflecting about the life I have lived here for the past 11 years?

I am who I am, and where I am, because of the life I lived here, the people I met, the experiences I had....
(OH! you had something to do too, mom! ;-) xo)

and to close this chapter, or should I say book, makes me cry.

Here, I have grown.
I have felt sad, lonely, mad, angry, betrayed, scared...
I have been loved, admired, wanted, (or so I think :P) needed....
I have felt happiness that I only thought was possible in movies.
I have come to love like I have never have loved before.
I have made friends that are just like angels.
I have met an amazing man who I was lucky enough to marry and call my husband.
I have birthed a son who has made my life a fairytale.
I began to find myself.



In 7 days I leave.
I will jump in my car very early in the morning, with my husband, our baby and our dog.
I will sit next to Jodi as he drives and I just know, what I am feeling right now, will be nothing compared to what I will feel sitting there looking out the window, reflecting on everything and praying.

I will be wiping my tears and saying, bye bye Florida. I will miss you!

I will be sad to leave my father, sister and the rest of the family behind.
I will be sad to know I can't just jump in the car and go to a playdate with my mommy friends, who I have fallen in love with in so little time.
Or sad to not be able to see any of the tons of friends I made thru the years, that even if I don't see often, I do love and will miss just having them "close".
I will be sad to know I wont be able to tell Jodi that I am craving some Shrimp Scampi from La Bamba (yes! that is WHAT I LOVE to eat at that mexican restaurant! THEY are super good!)
and I will be sad to leave all the rude drivers behind!
HAHA! well, maybe not that!

I leave a piece of my heart here.

If you were part of my life here in Florida, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you for making me who I am now.
Thank you for teaching me something.
Thank you for being a part of this whole beautiful journey.
And thank you for still being part of my life to this day.



Last, thank you for reading this post.
My apologies if it came accross a little sad.
It is 12:55 am, I can't seem to sleep lately and I needed to release all these emotions.
Where else than in my diary/blog?


I am going to try to collect a few pictures - one of each year I lived in FL - and post a collage here of the 11 years that just went by.
Can't promise it, bc I am quite a busy lady these days, but I will try.

Going to bed now.
Will be waking up in a few hourse (whenever baby decides he is hungry) thinking, Oh my, 6 days now!

Good night!

Day 5

Day 5 of my stay in the beautiful town of Mount Pleasant, SC.
It is kind of surreal, to be driving around town thinking:
"Wow! I am going to be driving these streets a LOT!
That is going to be the Publix I shop at!
That mall is going to see a lot of me! hehe!..."

I remember when we used to drive up for our wedding preparations before our big day.
I was in LOVE with this town!
We used to always daydream about the day we were going to move up. We used to talk about it non-stop.

And look! The time has come!

We are going to be official South Carolina residents in a matter of days!!!!!


Ok, let me rewind a little and go back a few days...

Last Saturday was such an eventful day for me.
My emotions were all over the place, to say the least.

First I dropped my beautiful mother at the Fort Lauderdale airport. It was just so sad to know that was going to be the last time she stayed at my house in Delray. We had so many great times this past year and a half in my lovely little house.

Then after spending a little time at the house, I drove up to West Palm beach to pick up my sweet husband, who had been gone all week, as usual now.

And at night, I went to a Bye Bye Bunco game w my Boca/Delray mommy group friends! It was for them to say Bye Bye to me :-(
I had a phenomenal time, like I always do!
These girls are just such a joy. They even had a cake for me!
It was definitely sad to hug them goodbye!

4am Sunday came and we got ready, carried the baby to his car seat and started our journey to SC.

Met with Mandy, Skylar and Davin at the Crackell Barrel for breakfast (in Jacksonville). WE had a GREAT time!!!! They are all so cute!!! I was left wanting more, to say the least!

Then we continued our drive up.
I have to say, it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.
It wasn't bad AT ALL!
Baby J did AMAZING!!!
(thanks to the new phonics dvd I had playing)

The anticipation of going inside my future house was just driving me nuts! I know I had seen the pictures (24 to be exact) over and over, but still!

Then we finally met w the landlord outside and went in! yey!
Such a lovely, nice, big house!
I dont know if it was worse after I had seen it - cause now I am just desperate to bring all my stuff and move in!!!

Anyways, we have spent the week here.
Daddy working, of course.

Little by little, I have been getting aquainted with the area. I even drove myself to the Town Center (yes, the same name as the one I go in Boca) Mall and did not get lost!
(well, I have to admit, I had a whole page with Very very detailed directions and Jodi on the phone guiding me through)
Haha! but the point is, I can go there now without getting lost!
(oh! and its only like 10 minutes away! lol)
Oh well, I am still gonna feel good about it no matter what!

Anyways, tomorrow we get to spend the day together (that is if Jodi doesn't go golfing w Xtian) and then Sunday we drive back down to my Florida.



It's been fun

....watching two little boys do their thing, which half an hr ago was giving each other wedgies in their power ranger and cowboy costumes.

....watching Jonathan try to play with them like he was a big boy too.

....sleeping in a full size bed, all 3 of us!

and just picturing our life over here!

Oh and big news!
I am going to be an auntie!!!
Nina and Vic are pregnant.

I found out at the same time she did!
Just like when I took the test with her on the phone!
How exciting was that?!!!
I was as nervous I think as I was when I was the one counting every second that went by, waiting for that little window to say something!
She started hyperventilating, just like I did and saying "Jenise! Jenise! It says pregnant!!!"

Nina is having a BABY!
Those that know her, know exactly how funny/odd that sounds!!
lol

Well, it's been a few months for me since they have been on baby mode, so I have had a little more time to get used to it.

For all of the rest of you guys (that know her too) y'all have 9 months to get used to it!
No more allergy to kids!!!
whohooo!!!
Everything IS possible ladies and gentlemen!
haha!

Anyways, enough teasing her! I am so so so anxious already to meet this baby!!!

Ok - time to finish this post.
I leave you all with a picture of my soon to be new home!
I can't wait to get the keys!!!

Pure Craziness

Has started.
I am going to try my hardest to blog tomorrow in between:
Taking my mom to the Fort Lauderdale Airport
Picking up Jodi in the West Palm Beach Airport
(gotta go aaaall the way down, to then go aaaall the way up, pass my house and then go even twice as far north... lol)

Then come home and pack and get everything ready for our trip.

Go to my Bye Bye Bunco Goodbye Party - thrown by my mommy friends here in FL.

I have been looking forward to this for so long and now I have to leave early and not drink since we are leaving at 4 (or 5 latest) to SC the next day for a whole week!

AHHH!!!

So yea, I am gonna try my hardest to do all this, BLOG and run after my lil Tazmanian Devil, Jonathan, who is a real ball of energy!
AND I LOVE IT!

Funny thing is - this is only the beginning of this chapter of my life where I finally move to South Carolina!!

Ta ta!
gotta go nite nite, it is late now.
:-)

11 Days Ago

I blogged.
I did my tag blog, as the supersticious individual I am, and then promised to come back for more exciting news.
I got a little busy, sorry.
It feels like forever since I have not posted something, doesn't it?
Well, it does to me!
Mostly because it has been quite a few interesting and very important days and so much is really going on in my life right now.
(although, when does it not?)

Before my last post, we celebrated my little angel's 1rst birthday!
I must say, the party was a complete success. Rain and all.
I was very bummed that it decided to rain 10 minutes before the party started.
But it really was a great party!
(I guess it made us cozy up to one another! )

...


Daddy left that monday morning, as usual.
Actually, everyone left that day.

Me, the baby and Abuela (grandma) were left in the house.

That thursday, June 18th, my big boy came back.
It was his, how old is he now? 34?, 34th birthday!
(I think)
(lemme do the math... 1975 minus 2009 = 34)
Okay, so I was saying, it was his 34th birthday.
We celebrated by ordering chinese and eating my cake.


Saturday, JUNE 20th, 2009 arrived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A year ago, at 2:03 PM, I had my little darling baby boy!

Words could not express the feeling I had all day long.
It was like I had butterflies in my belly, a high heel inside my throat and a helium balloon inside my head - bc I felt light headed all day long...
Such a bitter sweet day.
Ohhhh, what a special day that is, FOREVER, for me, the luckiest mommy in this world!

Wanna Do City was the place we "celebrated" his real birthday.

Just us :-)

Can I tell you how I felt when my cellphone alarm went off at 2:03pm?

Yes, I set my alarm off so it could go off at exactly 2:03pm, that way I could sing happy birthday, all by myself, to my little boy, at the exact time he was born last year.
I stood next to him in his stroller, sung happy birthday - while caresing his head and holding his hand - and held back my tears as much as I could.
My eyes were literally filling up with water.
I felt like those cartoon characters (like in Sponge Bob) where the cartoon is about to cry, but first the whole eye gets full of water, and then the tears start pouring out...


But I was in public, and I wasn't a cartoon (even though I probably started looking like one, since my nose was getting all red), so I had to stop myself.

Father's day was also a great day.
I spent the day with my daddy and my baby's daddy at the house. Yey for that!
(Abuela, Carmen and Don Felix were also there)
Of course, we cooked the latin food. YUM!





And that was pretty much it.
Except Punky's Bday was also during these past few days!
awww.... Poor Punky didn't really get her special day celebrated...
(I actually forgot until now... bad mommy!)


Now, I am back to concentrating in guess what?

THE MOVE!!!!

Jodi went to look at houses (Oh, how I wished I was with him) on Friday. Every house he saw had something we didn't like. Like no Washer and Dryer. No fenced yard. Small closets... etc etc.
Oh! remember my post with the picture that had the awesome backyard with a kid's playground on it?
Well, the master closet was not even as big as my guest closet here.
Uff, that's definitely a deal breaker for me!
Not to sound all stuck up, but I just could not do it!
My shoes don't even fit in that closet alone!
(not that I use 20% of them, I probably should even donate them, but I love them all! And I know once I get back on my groove, I will certainly use some of those sexy high heels I love so much!)
So anyways, we were kind of dissapointed.

After he came back, I searched online and found my DREAM house.
A little out of my price range, BUT it has EVERYTHING I want in it!!!!!!!!
And it is in the same street that our friends there live in!
(Jodi's best friend, as a matter of fact!)
ahhhh!!!!!!!!!
I want it! I want it and I want it!
(oh and I want it NOW!)


So he is going to look at it on Monday and I just pray pray pray, he says it has a big master closet and a washer and dryer!
If we get that house (and they take my offer *I am offering $50 less *** ) I will be one happy happy lady!
(until the move comes up - eeckkk! lol)


So for now, I am a bit anxious about this whole picking a house ordeal.

If you can, please pray for us and that we do get that house!


WE are pretty much MOVING IN LESS THAN 1 MONTH!
and I am going to PR next week for 10 days!

HOLY MOLY!

K, gotta go.

Thanks for reading.
Muahz!

I have been tagged

Before I write about my AMAZING Weekend, the weekend we spent with all the family members I love and we all celebrated Baby J's bday, I must do something different.
I have to.
I am "little" supersticious.
And some birdies are saying that if I don't do it, I would be cursed.
GREAT!

I would've done it anyways, u know...

Here we go.

The Rules of the ancient art of tagging are as follows.
Be diligent in your quest for understanding.
* List Six Unimportant Things That Make You Happy
* Mention and link to the person who tagged you
* Tag six of your favorite bloggers to play along {and comment on their blog to let them know they’ve been tagged}
And Go.

Kinda hard to list 6 unimportant things that make me happy, bc if they make me happy, I consider them IMPORTANT...)

Lets see:

1. Sweets. I have the worst sweet tooth someone can ever have. Lately I have been trying to stay away from that many sweets, since I have been wanting to loose a little more weight. However, we had family in town this weekend and my house is full of them now! I have to confess I have eaten 3.5 crispy creme donuts today! YEP! No breakfast, no lunch so far, just donuts and water and oh! 2 oreo cookies! Holy Moly! That is BAD!

2. Paying bills. I love paying bills. We could be doing good, or going through a little bit of a rough time, I still love paying bills. I like sitting on the computer, going through our finances and making those payments. I know, I am crazy!

3. Cleaning. uhu! now u really must think I am a nut! I don't like cleaning AFTER people. But I enjoy cleaning the house. Specially if I get to move furniture around and re-arrange it! My sister used to get mad at me when we shared a room when we were teenagers bc she would come home and not even know what side of the room her bed would be at. She would yell at me bc she couldn't find stuff... OH well... I have not changed since then.

4. Music. Well, not that music is not important, but sometimes I could be somewhere and a good song would play in the background and I would get all excited (internally, of course). I am defintely in love with Music, it brings out all sorts of emotions.

5. Getting cute, sweet text messages from friends out of the blue. Definitely brings a big smile to my face.

6. Good, crazy reality shows. The Bachelor (rette), Amazing Race, So you think u can dance, Big Brother, Survivor, Real Desperate Housewives, Dancing with the stars, The Apprentice, Wife Swap... etc etc... I think they make me think I am normal! ha!

So those are my 6 things, and now on to tagging away...


Aaaaaand my lucky winners are:


** http://beckywspot.blogspot.com/ - I was tagged by her!
** http://lovesthislifeilive.blogspot.com/ - I was also tagged by her!
** http://myprinzcharmings.blogspot.com/ - I was also tagged by her!!!!
** http://ninoshkac.blogspot.com/
** http://brooklynnnoelle.blogspot.com/
** http://www.mycharmingkids.net/

And that is it!
I am now free from any supernatural, blogspot curses!

PS - I have to say, I LOVE love love my top 5 winners!!!
Wonderful, amazing, adorable women I am lucky to call friends!!!

I am busy, busy, busy!

Trying to juggle a bunch of stuff already, and the craziness hasn't even officially started!

Inlaws are in town
Jodi in Tennessee and Alabama this week
My Mom, Abuela (grandma) and Roberto in town on Wed
Bubu's Bday party on Saturday
Pick up boxes
Pack a little
Get hair done before the week is over
Etc etc etc


Check soon for a new, exciting post! ;-P

Bye Bye May - Hello June, We are READY for you! (I think!)

And this is how we spent our weekend.....

And of course, baby Jonathan wanted to be part of the action...

Throwing the popcorn at him...

I guess he was surprised it all ended up in the floor....

8 small boxes, but the beginning of a JOURNEY for the Shelton Family!

These 2 upcoming months are going to be a rollercoaster. Buckle up, bc we are going fast my friends!!!!

I think I should ask the magic 8 ball....

Those of you who know me well, know that I am definitely a planner. A bit type A when it comes to scheduling everything and always updating my to do list.

I am not complaining, because I am happy about what is to come, but I can sincerely say, I am having a little bit of a hard time lately with the fact that there is SO MUCH in the air right now.
(more than anyone of you could even imagine. Sorry about being so ambiguous, but there's just so much going on in our lives that it would be hard to explain it all...)

I don't necessarily like waiting for answers. Well, who does anyways?

As of now, the only thing I know is that Jodi starts his new job on Monday. They are flying him to NC to start training. Yep! that is the only think I know right now! I don't even know when his return flight is! ugh!

I have so many things to figure out and without certain "somewhat" important details, it is very hard to come up with a plan.

Oh well...
Sooner or later all my ?'s will be answered....
For now, I will just have to resort to asking my magic 8 ball....

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OH!
By the way, I discovered I have a new talent!

Check out my new creation:

I have no idea what got into me.
I am calling it THERAPY! haha!

I started thinking about making bubu's bday cake @ home and next thing you know, I was sitting on the computer, watching tons of youtube videos on how to make homemade fondant, how to put frosty on the cake, how to make amazing fondant figurines, how to put the fondant on, etc, etc....

I ran to get the cake mix and fondant ingredients and started my creation.
Then I realized the morning after that the cake needed some sort of frosty layer on top, before putting the fondant on - AND - I still needed a bunch of other items to be able to continue my project - like, a rolling pin! Hello!
Yes, I am THAT naive when it comes to the kitchen - and I certainly DO NOT own any of these Martha Stewart friendly "tools"...

So anyways, I borrowed a little food coloring from my neighbor, bought the absolutely necessary things and continued with my little cake and next thing you know, the cutest white and blue cake, made by ME! was right in front of my eyes! I have to say, I was impressed! ;-)

Aaaaaaaaaand, I even posted pictures on my facebook and got all sorts of compliments on it!

So yea! that was good therapy! :-)

OH MY GOD!!!

I don't even know how to feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Is this really happening?

About an hour ago Jodi called.
Well, he actually was calling all morning, but I couldn't find my phone again.
Anyways, yes, he called me to give me the news:

He got the offer!!!!!!!!!!

I kinda wanna cry though!

I am confused.
Shouldn't I be all happy, jumping up and down with excitement!
We are finally moving to South Carolina!

3 years in the making - it is finally going to happen!

This is what my husband wants.
This is what I want(ed?)

How and why am I so nervous and scared?

I am seriously holding back my tears!!


In the past year I have seriously come to love life like never before. Regardless of the challenges we faced, I really loved every day of it.
I have built a new life, with new friends and a perfect little new family.
I have felt complete!

Now I feel like I am leaving everything behind!
And it makes me want to cry!

Like I said in my previous blog, YES, I want to move to South Carolina where they will address me as Ma'am.


But this is SO SOON!

So Jodi's official offer is in the mail, but he already told them yes.

He starts working on June 1rst!
JUNE 1rst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That is in like, 11 days!!!!!!!!!

What about bubu's bday party?
What about our trip to South Carolina together?
Is he gonna be over there and Imma have to fly up by myself?

What about my trip to Puerto Rico in July?
Should I postpone this until we get settled?

Is he gonna come see us on the weekends?
When am I gonna go look for houses?
When do I get to officially move?

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

I see Mr. Stress coming to visit me VERY soon!
Wait!!!!




I hear knocking!




Hold on!



Yep, that's him.

He said he is gonna stay here for a while!

To not freak out, he just wanted to come join the party with Mr. Anxiety, Mr. Confusion, Miss Excitement & Mrs. Fear.
Anybody else think their invited?
Cause I don't recall inviting anyone!!!!



So, I am a "little" overwhelmed.

I have way to much on my mind right now.

Lemme go tend to my new guests....