Last night, I sat on my couch watching one of my now favorite shows. They were doing short biographies on the top 10 dancers left.
Molly was one of them. She is 18 years old and such a talented young woman.
They showed pictures and videos of when she started dancing as a little girl.
She was (is) very pretty.
I couldn't hold back my emotions when her mother started talking about how proud she was of her daugher as they where showing the video of her dancing in her pink tutu and her ballerina shoes.
Her mom kept saying how proud she was in between many many tears of joy.
I started crying too and thinking, "Oh my God! I am having a daughter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I am carrying a little girl inside me, right now!!!
A little girl who will also wear pink tutus and ballerina shoes!!!
A little girl whose hair will be just like Molly's, dark blondish/brownish and curly!
A little girl who will have a breathtaking smile that will melt me and her daddy's heart!
A little girl who will grow up to be a young woman and become my best friend!
Ever since I found out I am having a girl, my days have been filled with new dreams.
I am not sure if this obsession is due to the fact that I grew up in a house filled with women.
2 sisters, my mom and my grandmother.
I also went to an all-girl Catholic School from kindergarden to Senior Year in high school.
And even our pets were always females.
Everything was girly all over the place, and of course, I loved it!
I love pink bows and dresses and high heels and chic flics and weddings....
When I was 10 years old, my younger sister was born and for me, it was like having a real life doll.
I spend almost every second I could with her and was just totally into taking care of her and being like a second mommy. It was fun and I embraced every minute I spent with her!
She was always closer to me than she was with everyone else, and we had a bond that was unique and special.
Then I went to college and moved out. Things changed.
I NOW will have another real life doll to "play" with, but this one will be mine! all mine! Forever!!!
Forever she will be my baby doll, no matter how old she is!
I can dress her up, and take her to places in her cute pink stroller and kiss her, and hug her, and love her and see her grow into a gorgeous woman....
I can sit in an audience and cry with pride when I see her twirling around in her gorgeous girly outfit!
I can teach her how to paint her toe nails and put lip gloss on!
And play with her hair and go shopping together!
I can talk to her about her latest crush!
And teach her how to value herself like my mom did with me and my sisters!
And cry of happiness the day she tells me she found the man of her dreams.
And cry even more when she announces that he proposed!
(hopefully I can watch this happening!! )
And stand up in church and see my hansome husband and proud Daddy walking her down the aisle, wearing the most gorgeous wedding dress I had ever dreamt of, (that I helped her pick) towards the man who will become her husband.
And be right next to her as she gives birth to my grandchildren...
Oh GOSH!
I can't type this without crying!
God only knows how much these dreams mean to me!
And how happy I truly am that I get to live them one day!
God knows how much I already love her and how much I want her to know that!
I am having a GIRL - and to me, it is a dream come true!
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I ADORE my SON with all my heart!
He is just
everything to me and he will always be.
And NOW I get to ADORE my daughter too!
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE PINCH ME?
Seriously?
Is this all a dream?
I spend hours looking at crib bedding for her and so far, I have narrowed it down to 3 choices.
That has been a LOT of fun!
Want to see?
These are my absolute favorites so far!
I am actually so anxious to start decorating and getting her room ready!!
Aren't they just perfect? :-)
I think of the day when I get to hold her in my arms and introduce her to Jonathan.
My 2 angels side by side!
It is by far one of the best dreams I have ever had and I can't wait for it to happen soon!
So yes, I am pregnant and maybe sometimes a little hormonal and sentimental, but I know these feelings I am feeling lately are pure and filled with so much happiness and joy!
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To my 2 children:
I promise I will try to be the best mother I could possibly be, ALWAYS!
I promise I will love you unconditionally, no matter what.
I promise I will try to help you become a good person with a great heart!
A heart filled with love, compassion and good intentions.
I will support your decisions and be there for you ETERNALLY!
I will laugh at your jokes, clap when I am proud, praise your accomplishments and be the PROUDEST MOM in the universe!
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I can't think of a better feeling in the world than being proud of your own children.
Even the other day, when Jonathan was in the car for 10 hours without fussing, I looked at him and wished he knew how proud of him I was. That feeling has been one that I had never felt before, and I liked it.
No, I didn't like it! I loved it!
I can just imagine how much more of those moments I will have with both of them!
More DREAMS!
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I am about 18 weeks pregnant now.
22 more to go.
I am excited, anxious, scared and extremely excited about our new journey as parents of 2.
Our cute little boy, who is just PERFECTION to me!
And soon a little princess - due in May 2010!
Life has given me so much more during these past few years.
More than I could have ever imagined I would have had.
Yes, I always wanted to marry someone like Jodi and have 2-3 kids, but now that I have what I wanted I can truly say, WOW! I am truly blessed.
It definitely has had its up and DOWNS. And for those who know me, you know what we have been through and what I am talking about.
But it still "is a wonderful life I live,
My wonderful LIFE"!
...and no matter how good or not so good of a day I am having, I am enjoying every second of it!
I leave you with the video of our Gender Ultrasound #2, another one of my happiest moments!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0dQLuNgdK4
