Tic. Toc. Tic. Toc. again....

If I remember well, I think it was about this time last year that we were trying to decide whether to move up to South Carolina or stay here in Florida...

I was sitting down on my computer (just like I have yesterday and today) looking at homes for rent in Mount Pleasant, my favorite and probably the only city I would move to over there.

Jodi just got an offer from another mattress company.
We picked a beautiful, brand new 3 story (3 story!?!!! WHAT THE HECK was I thinking??!!!) townhouse. Applied for it and got accepted.
I had everthing, the lease, deposit, and all the additional paperwork, ready to be sent in the mail.
Everything was happening too fast and I was just 1 month away from delivering my sweet baby Jonathan.

I was nervous. And SCARED!


Too much was happening and the puzzle pieces didn't seem to be fitting perfectly.
It just did not seem RIGHT!

So we opted to STAY, which we still believe was the best decision.

Jodi had a GREAT job at the time, we were expecting our perfect baby and we already lived in a beautiful little villa that I have come to love and call home.
So we continued with our Wonderful Life here in Florida.
(Our wonderful life!! wink wink!)

Fast Forward one year (if you, ahem, "FORGOT", what that symbol stands for...)

Here I am, again, looking at homes for rent. Again asking myself, could this be it? Again thinking, what about my friends down here, my family, my life???

This time is different. TOTALLY different.

Do I want to move to SC eventually?
YES, OF COURSE!!!
I still want to work on planning the most beautiful weddings over there, just like mine!
I still want to find a beautiful home for me and my 2 babies (no, I am not pregnant). Of course, with a big fenced yard for my crazy dog! (and maybe even another dog, if I could ever convince Jodi! HA!)
I still want to live closer to some loved ones in NC (In-Laws, best friends...)
I still want to live in a city where everyone is SO nice and so cute...
Where you see the mommies walking around with their babies in their strollers...
The daddy's with their kids behind their bicycles in their little attached chairs.
You pass the tennis courts and see the cute couples playing each other.
You pass the pool and hear the laughter and the kids screaming and playing...
Everybody drives normal, not like they are all in a hurry, like down here unfortunately.
People say thank you when u let them pass you and wave hello and open doors...
Good Morning! How are you? - is what I want to hear when I leave my house and go somewhere in the mornings...

I want to live there! yes I do!

But right NOW??

I now feel like I am so much over here too.


I never thought I would have met such a special group of friends in so little time and I just think I am going to have a hard time finding people like them anywhere else. They are fun, loving, sincere, giving and just a bunch of GREAT GIRLS!!! And it breaks my heart just the thought of not having any more playdates with all of our babies...

My father, my stepmom and Jonathan's Godmother, my sister and her husband, my old neighbors, my old friends....

My mom comes to Florida almost every other month to see me, Jonathan, Jesly (sister) and the rest of the clan. Roberto, (mom's bf for 20 yrs) has an apartment in Miami and it is so convenient for them to stay there if I have a full house....

I can go on and on and on about the great things I have here, but I will leave it at that....


It NOW terrifies me to know that I could be leaving this all behind.

SO YES, I AM SCARED AGAIN.
YES, I am CONFUSED
YES, I want to move to SC
BUT YES, I want to stay here in FLORIDA, where I am happy too!

soooo, what now?

As always, PRAY


This time I will not pray for it to happen.
This time I will not pray for it to not happen.

This time I will completely leave it in God's hands.

And I will pray that whatever happens, and whatever offer they make him (HOPEFULLY SOON, BECAUSE I AM DYING OVER HERE IN SUSPENSE), is for the BETTER.



.... and while I do that, I will continue (just out of curiosity) to look for nice lil homes over there!

Although, I think I found THE ONE already... and shhhhh!!! I haven't even told Jodi. Check out my new patio! (hehe)

So yes, Tic. Toc. Tic. Toc. Again for us.

I guess only time will tell if I am going to be changing my driver's license to a SC one or we get to stay here for a "little" bit longer!!!


**** and if you are wondering, bc I know I didn't even give any details, Jodi did interview with a company for a job in South Carolina yesterday and they told him that they will be sending him an offer package soon ****
(no idea how long soon means to them)
Ohhhhh, how I love to be kept in suspense!