little, well, not so little, pregnant, naggy lady

Ohhhh! (as I sigh)
Spending a little of my time venting on my blog!
Yes, I still have a wonderful life! So many wonderful things going on and, u know, very close to having and holding my little princess.

But it has NOT been an easy ride lately!

Look what the Dr. prescribed this week:

Of course, Jojo has to spend a little time with the new "toy" in the house!

Dr. asked me pretty much NOT to do anything! Not that I am comfortable doing things like walking, sitting up, picking up toys, sleeping... u know, the normal things....  But yes, she pretty much put me on a partial bedrest.  GREAT! Ugh, NOT! :-(

I had to go to her office this week bc of those just "wonderful" Braxton Hicks.  They got so strong and they were so frequent, I just had to go get checked.  I remember having these like a week before I went to the hospital with Jojo.  They were not even this strong!  I mean, when I was checked at the hospital, as they put the IV on me before doing the C-Section, they showed us the chart of my contractions and I was having them very very close and strong to each other - and those didn't even hurt as much as the ones I am having lately! Scaaaaary!!! 

Everything went well - although the Dr. seemed a bit preocupied with me going into pre-term labor while she was away on vacation (which will be next week)

According to the day I conceived Julianna, I am due May 9th.

According to the Dr. the other day, my new EDD should be around April 27th - and still thinks it will be sooner than that!

Yikes!

Baby measures about 2 weeks ahead and already weights 6.2 lbs (give or take, of course).

I am having SUCH a hard time moving around.

I am soooo ready to get her out already!

BUT!

I am soooo not ready to have her yet!

I feel like I have nothing ready!

I have so much to do!!!!

Also:

I am not ready to spend a few days in the hospital and leave my little Jojo behind. (I am actuallly starting to freak out about this :-(  )

I am not ready to deal with the pain of another C-Section! (I am so scared)

BUT!,  most of you know that I am hoping, praying and really really wishing for a VBAC - so we shall see about that!

I am not ready to get no sleep while also trying to parent a gorgeous, but very hyper and energetic toddler.

I am not ready to deal with the stress of breast feeding and my child not latching properly (let's hope this is not the case with baby girl, like it was with Jojo)

I just FEEL like I am NOT, well, u get the point!

I think it's finally hitting me - we are ALMOST THERE!

Baby Julianna is going to be here in about a month!

A. M.o.n.t.h. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's like, very soon!

I DO NOT want to sound like I am not excited!

You all know how happy I am about having my baby girl!

I CAN'T wait to meet her and hold her and kiss her and snuggle with her!

I guess the nerves, anxiety, fear and hormones are getting the best of me right now....

K, I think I am done venting!

Sorry!!

I didnt mean to be all poopy!

But it IS my blog, and sometimes I just gotta spend a little time getting some of my other "not so happy happy joy joy" emotions off my chest...

Ok, i feel better now!

I shall be back!