I lost it!

My mucus plus!!
hehe!
Anything gets me excited now a days! ;-)

PS: yesterday's full moon didn't work for us (silly myths! blah!) and unless I have her in 9 hrs, everyone's predictions were wrong! :-P

Getting a "little" desperate...

BLAH!


I can't even tell you how anxious I am.
I know it is exciting to not know what is going to happen and when Julianna will be ready to come into this world, but the suspense is killing me!
Lots of people have been telling me (and some of these guesses are from a while ago) that she is going to be born on Thursday - which is TOMORROW!
Tonight there is a full moon.
Could they be right?
Hmmm.... I don't know, but it feels like she is going to stay put for at least another week.


I am totally obsessed with having a VBAC right now.  The more I read about it, the more I want it.  The only problem is, I haven't been really dealing with the most supportive Dr in the world - and to my understanding, that makes ALL the difference!


Last Monday (2 days ago), I went to my 38 week appointment.  I was thrilled to hear that my body is still progressing little by little.  I went from 2 cm dilated to 3! YEY! and also from 50% effaced to 70%.  Not sure what the station of the baby is, but she said she is still pretty high.
Anyways, as I was getting checked, I noticed my Dr was doing something in there that did NOT feel normal.  Of course, the chicken that I am, I didn't say anything.
It actually HURT.
After I got dressed, I went to her office to have a little chat with her about, well, u know, my VBAC, and how I still want to continue waiting until I pass my 40 weeks.
She wasn't excited.  I even asked her if she felt ok, bc she was just so cold and distant.
She proceeded to tell me that today she stripped my membranes, so things should get moving faster!
Wait! WHAT? You did what?
I was in shock!  I couldn't believe she would do such thing without even asking me or letting me know what she was doing!
Again, I didn't say a word! ugh!  But Hello! That is HUGE!
Oh - you may not know what stripping membranes is. 
Here:  "Stripping the membranes is when a midwife, doctor or even the pregnant women inserts two fingers into the vagina and makes a sweeping motion inside the cervix to loosen not only the mucus plug but the bag of water from the uterus"  OH, and this is done to promote LABOR - which  I guess, sometimes works and sometimes it doesn't.


Anyways, she basically tried to induce me and I was NOT fine with that!
I stood there like a lost puppy and continued my conversation as to how long she was going to let me go without going in to get "literally induced" (u know, breaking my water, pitocin...)
***  I DO NOT WANT TO GET INDUCED *** But I guess, if I pass a certain point without going into spontaneous labor, I have to.
She started looking at her calendar and told me, May 10th!
What?
That's like only 1 day after my due date!
When I say I want to go past my due date, it means about a week or a week and a half past that day!  Not just a day!
Anyways, we ended our conversation with the usual "we will see what happens at the next appointment:".
And to be honest with you, I just don't feel like arguing with her or being too assertive.
I don't want her to think I am being disrespectful or too bitchy, when she is my Dr.  PLUS she is the one responsible for my baby's life (and mine too, for that matter).
I like her, I think she is super nice - but it just doesn't feel like she is going to try to get me to have a successful VBAC.  It doesn't seem like she is passionate about it like I thought she was.  On the contrary, it looks to me that she wants baby out soon, no matter how.  And that makes me sad!


As I left her office, I was feeling down (again).
I guess I just have to continue waiting to see what happens and breathe a lot and hope that things DO work out for me, one way or another.
"Que sea lo que Dios quiera"
(meaning, I leave it in God's hands)
Ultimately, I want to have and hold my HEALTHY baby girl in my arms, no matter how she comes into this world.


Today, I am 38 weeks 4 days.
I feel a bit better than yesterday.  (Forgot to mention, the membrane stripping thing made my body contract a LOT and get horrible menstrual-like cramps).
I am NOT sure if I am letting her do an internal next Monday.  Everyone tells me not to, but I am kind of obsessed with hearing my progress and see if I dilated anymore. So we will see.


I am glad I didn't go into labor right after she did that, because if I had gone into labor and had my baby via C-Section, I would have always believed that would had been the reason and been very upset.


I hope things happen soon! I hope this is the last post I do before going into labor and having my princess.
I mean, it could be, if i don't get in here again.  But if by next Monday nothing happens, chances are, I will blog again.  :-/


Common Baby Julianna! You know you want to meet me and ur daddy and gorgeous little brother! Or maybe not! Maybe she hears all the chaos always and Jojo's tantrums and is deciding to stay in there a bit longer! :-p

A look back...

I kind of wanted to get a little better with my blog.  Especially during these past weeks, when there is so much going on and my life is about to change again!

The thing is, I am just hanging in here.
Waiting patiently anxiously for Julianna to tell me when she is ready!
I know, I know, I am still not on my 40th week.  I kinda should relax until due date and if something happens before, then GREAT!
But I can't!
Maybe because my Dr. keeps trying to scare me and tell me I have a big baby in there and she thinks she may get stuck.
Maybe cause I had Jonathan at 38 weeks (which would be this Saturday for Julianna)
or Maybe because I am JUST READY! My body is ready, my mind is ready....


2 weeks ago I was soooooooooo excited! I was at 2cm and 50% effaced.  Last monday appointment= nothing! :-(
Everything is Status Quo - booo!!!!


So, sorry, I don't have great news to blog about right now.

My days are somewhat boring.  I am just literally waiting, waiting and waiting...

Jojo is AWESOME of course! He is fun and funny (although today he was particularly cranky - and so was I)
Jodi is just working from home
Punky howling at everything
and well, u know..... the usual....



So I figured I would dedicate my newest post to my belly pictures this time around. (some, of course).

Enjoy looking at how my princess grows in there!
And yes, I DO KNOW there is only 1 in there.
 I make big bellies - for those who know me from before! :-P

(this last one was taken w my cell phone while I waited for the belly cast to dry!)

Maybe I will take some more before my little Julianna makes her grand debut!

(depending on the mood, I can't promise anything)

Will be back if anything happens....

(could be back sooner, but I am not sure who would want to read about my achy back & hips, and my contractions, lack of sleep, 5 runs to go pipi in the middle of the night, ohhh, my gorgeous, NEW stretch marks....  I can go on...)

But hey, don't take me wrong!  I STILL EMBRACE and LOVE being pregnant!

I am just a little naggy lately.  And I am allowed! :-P

Ta ta!

Okay, I am ready! I think!!!

I took a long shower today, blow dried my hair nicely, painted my nails with a very pretty pink nail polish...

I feel like I can't do anything more to prepare.  I mean, how do you prepare more when you don't even know what is going to happen? Or when it's going to happen, I should say.

With Jonathan, I had a scheduled C-Section.  It fell on a Friday and we were all completely ready for him to arrive.  Everything was planned, scheduled and things just had to flow the way we wanted them to. And they kinda of did. I mean, surgery was ok, recuperation, not so good.  But that's another story.

Now, I want it all to be different. 
I am on my 37th week and there is nothing I want more than to have this baby choose her birthday and for me to deliver her in the most natural way possible. 
I know I had a C-Section and plenty of you out there think it may be to risky to even try it.  But I have informed myself very well on this topic and if everything goes well, it could happen very easily.
The risks are really not that high and I wont even go into what I think about Doctors and Hospitals regarding this.
So yes, I want to have a VBAC - Vaginal Birth After C-Section.
I am getting a Doula to help me during labor and delivery and I just know, that was probably the best decision I have made in a while.

I am extremly anxious because I feel like she may come anyday now!
My Braxton Hicks get stronger and stronger.  I feel her so low and some of her kicks are very painful.
Her head is down and my body is getting ready! I know it!

BESIDES THE FACT THAT A WEEK AGO, LAST MONDAY, DR. F TOLD ME I WAS 2 CENTIMETERS DILATED AND 50% EFFACED!!!!
THAT IS HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE FOR ME!  I HAVE REPEATED THIS TO MYSELF SOOOO MANY TIMES! LOL

This past week I have walked a little, I have been drinking Raspberry Leaf Tea, Taking Evening Primrose Oil Pills (and inserting one here and there), bouncing on the Yoga Ball and even a little extra curricular activity w my baby's daddy.  (which I have to say, was very ackward and funny - but hey! whatever helps!)

My next appointment is TOMORROW and I do not think I have been this anxious in a while!
I can't wait till she checks me and tells me what has happened this week!
Could I be more? Has my body progressed? Are we getting closer and closer????
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am going crazy!
I want to know!
But I want to hear good news of course!!!

My mom is packing her bags already and that makes me feel so happy bc I know she is getting ready too!
Jodi's mom and dad close on their new home on Wednesday, and after that, they will be here as soon as we call them (Well, 6 hrs after or so, since they have a long drive).
Christian and Lisa are ready for our phone call so they can help with Jojo, if we have to head to the hospital and no one has arrived yet...
My bags are packed.
Her little area in my closet and next to my side of the bed is ready - pack and play, changing station (which is a dresser with the changing pad on top, since we don't have much room for the real changing table in our room), my glider, her swing, diaper genie, etc etc....
Oh Gosh! This anticipation is driving me crazy now!
The thing is, I still have 20 days until my official due date!!!
20 days!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's so close but so far!!!!

I feel SO PREGNANT! and I look SO PREGNANT!
I feel pretty sometimes though, which is great! Because I am very very big right now and can hardly walk around.

I am soooo desperate to meet Julianna!
I guess I will try to update tomorrow after my Dr's Appt!

I know I have been neglecting this blog! I will try to get on here a little more often, even if it's just a small entry!

I feel like I am rambing and just going all over the place with this one, so I will finish it now! lol

Wish me luck tomorrow! ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

little, well, not so little, pregnant, naggy lady

Ohhhh! (as I sigh)
Spending a little of my time venting on my blog!
Yes, I still have a wonderful life! So many wonderful things going on and, u know, very close to having and holding my little princess.

But it has NOT been an easy ride lately!

Look what the Dr. prescribed this week:

Of course, Jojo has to spend a little time with the new "toy" in the house!

Dr. asked me pretty much NOT to do anything! Not that I am comfortable doing things like walking, sitting up, picking up toys, sleeping... u know, the normal things....  But yes, she pretty much put me on a partial bedrest.  GREAT! Ugh, NOT! :-(

I had to go to her office this week bc of those just "wonderful" Braxton Hicks.  They got so strong and they were so frequent, I just had to go get checked.  I remember having these like a week before I went to the hospital with Jojo.  They were not even this strong!  I mean, when I was checked at the hospital, as they put the IV on me before doing the C-Section, they showed us the chart of my contractions and I was having them very very close and strong to each other - and those didn't even hurt as much as the ones I am having lately! Scaaaaary!!! 

Everything went well - although the Dr. seemed a bit preocupied with me going into pre-term labor while she was away on vacation (which will be next week)

According to the day I conceived Julianna, I am due May 9th.

According to the Dr. the other day, my new EDD should be around April 27th - and still thinks it will be sooner than that!

Yikes!

Baby measures about 2 weeks ahead and already weights 6.2 lbs (give or take, of course).

I am having SUCH a hard time moving around.

I am soooo ready to get her out already!

BUT!

I am soooo not ready to have her yet!

I feel like I have nothing ready!

I have so much to do!!!!

Also:

I am not ready to spend a few days in the hospital and leave my little Jojo behind. (I am actuallly starting to freak out about this :-(  )

I am not ready to deal with the pain of another C-Section! (I am so scared)

BUT!,  most of you know that I am hoping, praying and really really wishing for a VBAC - so we shall see about that!

I am not ready to get no sleep while also trying to parent a gorgeous, but very hyper and energetic toddler.

I am not ready to deal with the stress of breast feeding and my child not latching properly (let's hope this is not the case with baby girl, like it was with Jojo)

I just FEEL like I am NOT, well, u get the point!

I think it's finally hitting me - we are ALMOST THERE!

Baby Julianna is going to be here in about a month!

A. M.o.n.t.h. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's like, very soon!

I DO NOT want to sound like I am not excited!

You all know how happy I am about having my baby girl!

I CAN'T wait to meet her and hold her and kiss her and snuggle with her!

I guess the nerves, anxiety, fear and hormones are getting the best of me right now....

K, I think I am done venting!

Sorry!!

I didnt mean to be all poopy!

But it IS my blog, and sometimes I just gotta spend a little time getting some of my other "not so happy happy joy joy" emotions off my chest...

Ok, i feel better now!

I shall be back!

Julianna Sophia's Nursery!

My not so genious idea of adding a little extra colors to the wall (GREEN!) so it matched the bedding a little better....

Don't worry, as soon as it was all done, I asked Daddy to paint it all back to the way it was and cover those horrific circus looking stripes!

Bubu LOOOOVES to jump on Julianna's crib

Time to do my famous fabric Pom Poms

(which by the way, I will dedicate a whole section in another post to these - with pictures so you can see how I did them...)

And, the almost-finished NURSERY:

Lots of pink :-)

(and many many many more to come!!!)

I absolultely love love love it!

Makes me so anxious to have her already!

Missing a few extra details (hamper, a few more decorations, etc) but you get the idea!

My pretty princess's room is almost ready, and I couldn't be more excited!!!!

I want this! no! Wait! I want that! Ohh! but look at that other one....

How many hours can one spend looking at nursery decorations?

I spent eeeeendless hours trying to decide on the bedding...

Then the furniture...

wait! No, those 2 were simultaneous.

Then, the paint. 
Which colors? which walls? what combinations?

Now:  Chandeliers!!!!!
ahhh!
I loooove them!
So dreamy!!!  So princessy!  So me! and Julianna!

I really do not have many options.  I can't get a regular one to hang from the ceiling. as we don't want to have to remove the celing light/fan for now. 
And plus, who knows how long we will stay in this house.
I am bummed, bc my ideal nursery for Julianna has that gorgeous, crystal chandelier right there, on the middle of the room :-)

So, what about a floor chandelier?
Look! how cute is this!!!????

I love it in general.
But not too convinced it will go well in Julianna's room yet.


LET ME TELL YOU, this nursery has become one of the hardest (STILL FUN) projects I have ever been involved in, in my LIFE!  I love it though, but for some reason, I just can't seem to make decisions too quickly.



Well, gotta go! Getting late and I am in the middle of my floor chandelier search!

Next on the listt:  hmmm.... something to put next to the crib.

Perhaps a little cute night table.

Or a little shelve unit for nice pink bins.

Or who knows what else I will come up with!

Any ideas? ;-)

Bad day? You tell me!

"Ring Ring"
"Hello"
"Hi honey"
"Hi!"
"What u doin?"
"Nothing, cleaning up after your son. What's going on? Why are u calling me so early?"
"Nothing.  Dr. Bernard just called.  They need me to go to Florida this week."
"What? We just got back from there!!! UGH!" 
"Yes, we have some big meetings on Thursday and Friday.  They want you to come with me.  I want you to come with me"
"Baby!! I can't keep traveling like this! We have been nonstop since we moved here! And before that, life was even crazier.  It's so hard to travel this big and with Jonathan. I don't think I will go this time.  I want to, but it is too much for me!"
"We can drive half way there and spend the night. You can see your Sweet Pea friend, and then we can drive the other half"
"Ohh honey! I am not sure about leaving anymore.  I just can't.  It is too much of a hassle. And driving? Ugh, I am not sure what is worse @ this point"


The converstion was not much longer, but I ended up having a little bit of a breakdown and told him, in between tears, that I will talk to him later.

LEAVING AGAIN????
I just hate being a single mom even for 1 day.
Maybe if I was in Florida, where I knew my way around. Where I have a fabulous group of friends that I miss so much.  I have my family...."
But this just doesn't feel like home yet - and without him here, even worse.
I hate when he travels.  Not having his prescense and not having him next to me in bed at night or waking up with him in the morning.
He is a lot of help around the house, but most of it, he is my husband and I like him to be here every day with us!
Call me needy old fashioned, but I just dont like when he leaves us.

I am also VERY scared of him leaving so often and not being able to perform his work for the job here to the best of his abilities. What if they find out?
We can't really afford loosing that right now!

He came home shortly after just because he heard me crying and he doesn't like that!
So sweet.
But there was nothing I could say, but "Ok honey.  You do your thing and I will do mine. I am here to support you no matter what".

Not too happy with everything, I decided to get out of the house.
This RARELY happens.
Yep, I have become a hermit over here.  Mostly because of the cold weather - but it's warm now. 
Apparently that hasn't helped, because I still don't go out too much.
And the excuse of getting lost... well, I have a GPS now....
I decided to take Bubu to the park.
Poor thing needs to get out too!
I get us out of the car, walk towards the park, open the gate and what do I see?
A LAKE!
Instead of the sand that he was supposed to be running around in.
UGH!
But of course! What idiot would forget it rained all day yesterday and chances are, it would have not dried up by today?

Ok, no problem!
Back into the car - Bubu throws a little tantrum!
Who wouldn't? I finally take him out to play, he sees the slides, swings and all that fun stuff and then I put him back in the car.  My poor baby!

So I decided to go deposit some checks at the bank.

On the way there, I saw a dead deer on the side of the road!
This always makes me sad.
I love those little creatures :-(

I continue my way to the bank and try to forget it.
Hmmm.... "I wonder why the atm line is so long."
As I was driving around I realized - ooops! today is Marthin Luther King day = Banks ARE closed!

ok, whatever!
I will just deposit them one by one thru the atm.

Finally, my turn (since the line was long). I put my card in.  Atm spits it out.
Put it back in a few times.  Same amount of times ATM spits it back out!
UGHH! What in the world? 

Well, I guess those 2 or 3 little dog bites on the end of it made the stupid machine not want to take it!
THANKS PUNKY!!

No problem. UGH! I will do it some other time.

Bubu fell asleep and I was ok happy with that! It was around 1:30 pm and was in fact hoping he would take an early nap. 
His sleep schedule has been descombobulated and he has been going to bed after 11pm and waking up in the middle of the night screaming.
So maybe by napping this early he may go to bed early tonight! (wishful thinking)

I started heading towards Taco Bell, right next to the bank.
Yum!
You guys know that my Taco Bell cravings are a serious thing when I am pregnant!
Drive thru, empty!
hmm, weird! It Is lunch time!
I stop and wait for the lady to say Hello and ask if I was ready for my order.
But she says something about some window.
"I am sorry"
She said it again.
And again, I didn't understand.
So whatever, I just drive to the window to see what was going on.
"Our drive-thru register is not working.  You have to come inside to order"

WHAT?
But how?  I am not about to wake up Bubu just so I can have my 2 cruncky tacos!

I must have had a very sad face and tone of voice when I told her that my baby was sleeping and I couldn't come inside, because they took my order.
All I wanted was 2 crunchy tacos!
And I got them! :-)

I sat in my car, ate my tacos and stared at bubu sleeping.
Got on facebook on my cellphone - but of course, my battery was very low, so I couldn't really stay on it for too long.
Played with the GPS - that didn't last too long either.  It actually frustruated me even more when I started putting store names on it and it wouldn't recognize them.
I just decided to drive around.
"Hmmm... Let's see what other stores are around this little mall area that I might not even know about"

I drove in circles, until this one guy comes out of his parking spot suuuuper fast, DOES NOT look my way and almost crashes into me!

WHAT IN THE WORLD????
Then he looks at me like he didn't do anything wrong?
How about waving ur hand or saying you are sorry, you FREAK?
UGH!
The NERVE!

I think at that time I started crying a little.  Just out of frustration and anger.

I wanted to have a good day.  Do something fun maybe. Get my mind distracted.
But instead, everything was just not going too well....
So, I decided to just park infront of Hallmart and play with my split ends.

An hr and a half passed since Bubu fell asleep, so I decided to go to drive to Super Walmart. By the time I got there, I would wake him up and go shopping.
Retail therapy, even at a Walmart, always helps.

I was looking for a parking spot and Jodi called again.
He said he was home.
Screw walmart.  I dont really need anything.  Let's go back home.

A few little obstacles, but come to think of it, everything was fine.
I was home. Safe and Sound.
Jodi will come back on Friday night or Saturday morning and we will be all together again.
Waiting to see what the next crazy adventure is.

I have an amazing family and a very blessed life.
So yes, maybe it seemed like it was a bad day.
Yesterday, I can assure you it did.

But today, in retrospect, I know that it wasn't.
I had a GREAT day, compared to a LOT of people.
(yes, I am thinking about all those poor people in Haiti)

And I am lucky enough to even blog about it :-)

White Xmas it is.... yey :-/

Well, as you all probably know, I am an island girl.
I love the heat.
I love wearing lighter clothes.
And I love love love, wearing open toe shoes!!!

But in a day, this is what I will be looking like!

We are going to travel up to Boone, NC to spend the holidays with Jodi's mom, dad, brother, niece and grandmother.

I have heard nothing but GREAT things about this place, so in a way, I am excited.

I can't wait to have a lovely Christmas with my inlaw's, who I love to pieces!

Well, maybe I can!! Can we celebrate it in the summer instead?

Or maybe all fly down to Puerto Rico?

I promise it is still "Christmasy", even though it doesn't snow!

Ok, enough whining.

I will be back with pictures I am sure.

Well, here, or on my facebook account.

Let's hope I dont turn into an ice cube!!!

Oh! and how in the world did I manage to live in Milwaukee, Wisconsin again?

Did I drink that much that I don't remember anything to do with freezing to death!

I guess it is "funner" to wear winter clothes and look all cute while playing with snow when I am not 20+ weeks pregnant, tired, fatigued and HUUUUGE!!!

How I feel:

I am just a "bit" smaller :-P

Merry Christmas to ALL OF YOU,  my faithful, wonderful bloggie bloggie readers!!

MUAHZ!!!

A daughter!

Last night, I sat on my couch watching one of my now favorite shows.  They were doing short biographies on the top 10 dancers left. 
Molly was one of them.  She is 18 years old and such a talented young woman.
They showed pictures and videos of when she started dancing as a little girl. 
She was (is) very pretty.
I couldn't hold back my emotions when her mother started talking about how proud she was of her daugher as they where showing the video of her dancing in her pink tutu and her ballerina shoes.
Her mom kept saying how proud she was in between many many tears of joy.
I started crying too and thinking, "Oh my God!  I am having a daughter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I am carrying a little girl inside me, right now!!!
A little girl who will also wear pink tutus and ballerina shoes!!!
A little girl whose hair will be just like Molly's, dark blondish/brownish and curly!
A little girl who will have a breathtaking smile that will melt me and her daddy's heart!
A little girl who will grow up to be a young woman and become my best friend!

Ever since I found out I am having a girl, my days have been filled with new dreams.

I am not sure if this obsession is due to the fact that I grew up in a house filled with women.
2 sisters, my mom and my grandmother.
I also went to an all-girl Catholic School from kindergarden to Senior Year in high school.
And even our pets were always females.
Everything was girly all over the place, and of course, I loved it!
I love pink bows and dresses and high heels and chic flics and weddings....


When I was 10 years old, my younger sister was born and for me, it was like having a real life doll.
I spend almost every second I could with her and was just totally into taking care of her and being like a second mommy.  It was fun and I embraced every minute I spent with her!
She was always closer to me than she was with everyone else, and we had a bond that was unique and special.
Then I went to college and moved out.  Things changed.

I NOW will have another real life doll to "play" with, but this one will be mine! all mine! Forever!!!
Forever she will be my baby doll, no matter how old she is!

I can dress her up, and take her to places in her cute pink stroller and kiss her, and hug her, and love her and see her grow into a gorgeous woman....
I can sit in an audience and cry with pride when I see her twirling around in her gorgeous girly outfit!
I can teach her how to paint her toe nails and put lip gloss on!
And play with her hair and go shopping together!
I can talk to her about her latest crush!
And teach her how to value herself like my mom did with me and my sisters!

And cry of happiness the day she tells me she found the man of her dreams.
And cry even more when she announces that he proposed!
(hopefully I can watch this happening!! )

And stand up in church and see my hansome husband and proud Daddy walking her down the aisle, wearing the most gorgeous wedding dress I had ever dreamt of,  (that I helped her pick) towards the man who will become her husband.
And be right next to her as she gives birth to my grandchildren...

Oh GOSH!
I can't type this without crying!
God only knows how much these dreams mean to me!
And how happy I truly am that I get to live them one day!

God knows how much I already love her and how much I want her to know that!

I am having a GIRL - and to me, it is a dream come true!

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I ADORE my SON with all my heart!
He is just everything to me and he will always be.
And NOW I get to ADORE my daughter too!

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE PINCH ME?

Seriously?
Is this all a dream?


I spend hours looking at crib bedding for her and so far, I have narrowed it down to 3 choices.
That has been a LOT of fun!

Want to see?
These are my absolute favorites so far!
I am actually so anxious to start decorating and getting her room ready!!
Aren't they just perfect? :-)

I think of the day when I get to hold her in my arms and introduce her to Jonathan.
My 2 angels side by side!
It is by far one of the best dreams I have ever had and I can't wait for it to happen soon!

So yes, I am pregnant and maybe sometimes a little hormonal and sentimental, but I know these feelings I am feeling lately are pure and filled with so much happiness and joy!
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To my 2 children:
I promise I will try to be the best mother I could possibly be, ALWAYS! 
I promise I will love you unconditionally, no matter what.
I promise I will try to help you become a good person with a great heart!
A heart filled with love, compassion and good intentions.
I will support your decisions and be there for you ETERNALLY!
I will laugh at your jokes, clap when I am proud, praise your accomplishments and be the PROUDEST MOM in the universe!
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I can't think of a better feeling in the world than being proud of your own children.
Even the other day, when Jonathan was in the car for 10 hours without fussing, I looked at him and wished he knew how proud of him I was.  That feeling has been one that I had never felt before, and I liked it.
No, I didn't like it! I loved it!
I can just imagine how much more of those moments I will have with both of them!
More DREAMS! 
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I am about 18 weeks pregnant now.
22 more to go.

I am excited, anxious, scared and extremely excited about our new journey as parents of 2.
Our cute little boy, who is just PERFECTION to me!
And soon a little princess - due in May 2010!

Life has given me so much more during these past few years.
More than I could have ever imagined I would have had.
Yes, I always wanted to marry someone like Jodi and have 2-3 kids, but now that I have what I wanted I can truly say, WOW! I am truly blessed.
It definitely has had its up and DOWNS. And for those who know me, you know what we have been through and what I am talking about.

But it still "is a wonderful life I live, My wonderful LIFE"!

...and no matter how good or not so good of a day I am having, I am enjoying every second of it!

I leave you with the video of our Gender Ultrasound #2, another one of my happiest moments!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0dQLuNgdK4