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January 19, 2010

Bad day? You tell me!

"Ring Ring"
"Hello"
"Hi honey"
"Hi!"
"What u doin?"
"Nothing, cleaning up after your son. What's going on? Why are u calling me so early?"
"Nothing.  Dr. Bernard just called.  They need me to go to Florida this week."
"What? We just got back from there!!! UGH!" 
"Yes, we have some big meetings on Thursday and Friday.  They want you to come with me.  I want you to come with me"
"Baby!! I can't keep traveling like this! We have been nonstop since we moved here! And before that, life was even crazier.  It's so hard to travel this big and with Jonathan. I don't think I will go this time.  I want to, but it is too much for me!"
"We can drive half way there and spend the night. You can see your Sweet Pea friend, and then we can drive the other half"
"Ohh honey! I am not sure about leaving anymore.  I just can't.  It is too much of a hassle. And driving? Ugh, I am not sure what is worse @ this point"


The converstion was not much longer, but I ended up having a little bit of a breakdown and told him, in between tears, that I will talk to him later.

LEAVING AGAIN????
I just hate being a single mom even for 1 day.
Maybe if I was in Florida, where I knew my way around. Where I have a fabulous group of friends that I miss so much.  I have my family...."
But this just doesn't feel like home yet - and without him here, even worse.
I hate when he travels.  Not having his prescense and not having him next to me in bed at night or waking up with him in the morning.
He is a lot of help around the house, but most of it, he is my husband and I like him to be here every day with us!
Call me needy old fashioned, but I just dont like when he leaves us.

I am also VERY scared of him leaving so often and not being able to perform his work for the job here to the best of his abilities. What if they find out?
We can't really afford loosing that right now!

He came home shortly after just because he heard me crying and he doesn't like that!
So sweet.
But there was nothing I could say, but "Ok honey.  You do your thing and I will do mine. I am here to support you no matter what".

Not too happy with everything, I decided to get out of the house.
This RARELY happens.
Yep, I have become a hermit over here.  Mostly because of the cold weather - but it's warm now. 
Apparently that hasn't helped, because I still don't go out too much.
And the excuse of getting lost... well, I have a GPS now....
I decided to take Bubu to the park.
Poor thing needs to get out too!
I get us out of the car, walk towards the park, open the gate and what do I see?
A LAKE!
Instead of the sand that he was supposed to be running around in.
UGH!
But of course! What idiot would forget it rained all day yesterday and chances are, it would have not dried up by today?

Ok, no problem!
Back into the car - Bubu throws a little tantrum!
Who wouldn't? I finally take him out to play, he sees the slides, swings and all that fun stuff and then I put him back in the car.  My poor baby!

So I decided to go deposit some checks at the bank.

On the way there, I saw a dead deer on the side of the road!
This always makes me sad.
I love those little creatures :-(

I continue my way to the bank and try to forget it.
Hmmm.... "I wonder why the atm line is so long."
As I was driving around I realized - ooops! today is Marthin Luther King day = Banks ARE closed!

ok, whatever!
I will just deposit them one by one thru the atm.

Finally, my turn (since the line was long). I put my card in.  Atm spits it out.
Put it back in a few times.  Same amount of times ATM spits it back out!
UGHH! What in the world? 

Well, I guess those 2 or 3 little dog bites on the end of it made the stupid machine not want to take it!
THANKS PUNKY!!

No problem. UGH! I will do it some other time.

Bubu fell asleep and I was ok happy with that! It was around 1:30 pm and was in fact hoping he would take an early nap. 
His sleep schedule has been descombobulated and he has been going to bed after 11pm and waking up in the middle of the night screaming.
So maybe by napping this early he may go to bed early tonight! (wishful thinking)

I started heading towards Taco Bell, right next to the bank.
Yum!
You guys know that my Taco Bell cravings are a serious thing when I am pregnant!
Drive thru, empty!
hmm, weird! It Is lunch time!
I stop and wait for the lady to say Hello and ask if I was ready for my order.
But she says something about some window.
"I am sorry"
She said it again.
And again, I didn't understand.
So whatever, I just drive to the window to see what was going on.
"Our drive-thru register is not working.  You have to come inside to order"

WHAT?
But how?  I am not about to wake up Bubu just so I can have my 2 cruncky tacos!

I must have had a very sad face and tone of voice when I told her that my baby was sleeping and I couldn't come inside, because they took my order.
All I wanted was 2 crunchy tacos!
And I got them! :-)

I sat in my car, ate my tacos and stared at bubu sleeping.
Got on facebook on my cellphone - but of course, my battery was very low, so I couldn't really stay on it for too long.
Played with the GPS - that didn't last too long either.  It actually frustruated me even more when I started putting store names on it and it wouldn't recognize them.
I just decided to drive around.
"Hmmm... Let's see what other stores are around this little mall area that I might not even know about"

I drove in circles, until this one guy comes out of his parking spot suuuuper fast, DOES NOT look my way and almost crashes into me!

WHAT IN THE WORLD????
Then he looks at me like he didn't do anything wrong?
How about waving ur hand or saying you are sorry, you FREAK?
UGH!
The NERVE!

I think at that time I started crying a little.  Just out of frustration and anger.

I wanted to have a good day.  Do something fun maybe. Get my mind distracted.
But instead, everything was just not going too well....
So, I decided to just park infront of Hallmart and play with my split ends.

An hr and a half passed since Bubu fell asleep, so I decided to go to drive to Super Walmart. By the time I got there, I would wake him up and go shopping.
Retail therapy, even at a Walmart, always helps.

I was looking for a parking spot and Jodi called again.
He said he was home.
Screw walmart.  I dont really need anything.  Let's go back home.

A few little obstacles, but come to think of it, everything was fine.
I was home. Safe and Sound.
Jodi will come back on Friday night or Saturday morning and we will be all together again.
Waiting to see what the next crazy adventure is.

I have an amazing family and a very blessed life.
So yes, maybe it seemed like it was a bad day.
Yesterday, I can assure you it did.

But today, in retrospect, I know that it wasn't.
I had a GREAT day, compared to a LOT of people.
(yes, I am thinking about all those poor people in Haiti)

And I am lucky enough to even blog about it :-)